I read Habakkuk today on my lunch hour and was encouraged. Habakkuk asked God the hard questions:
“Lord, how long must I ask for help and you ignore me? (1:2)
How can you put up with those evil people? (1:13)
However, at the end of the book, he states: “Fig trees may not grow figs, and there may be no grapes on the vines (no extra cash in my bank account). There may be no olives growing and no food growing in the fields (no referral in my inbox today). There may be no sheep in the pens and not cattle in the barns (no acknowlegement of things done on earth). But I will still be glad in the Lord. I will rejoice in God my Savior. The Lord God is my strength. He makes me like a deer that does not stumble so I can walk on the steep mountains(3:17-19).”
Lord, may I be continually satisfied in you….in you, alone. May I not look to find this satisfaction in my husband, not in my kids, not in my adoption, not in my job, not in my church. Not satified in the things that I own or the friends and family that I have. Thank you, God, for being everything that I need.
Oh I can relate to you. I have commented before awhile ago but I have been checking in on you hoping that you would have received your referral! My husband and I have been through some trials this year since we moved back to the states; we lost our baby boy at 18 weeks pregnant and have had a house fall through which we were hoping to move into, so we continue to live at the in laws!! I know our trails are different but when hope is deferred, it is so hard!! I shall be praying for you! I recently posted a song on my blog, No matter what, by Kerrie Roberts, it will bless you I am sure. Maybe you have have heard it already!!
My blog went private in June but you are welcome to read it if you send me you email address. I can then send you an invite. Mine is naomicuozzo@gmail.com
love, Naomi
Thanks for writing this, Sherry. On a particularly hard day, it is good to read. Praying for you – and for all of us.
Not sure if you check on this blog but it has been so long since you posted. Did you ever receive your referral? We just started the process to adopt from Uganda with AWAA. I really hope that you are not still waiting. My heart really goes out to you if you are. I am sure that God has been teaching you so much through this process!
Blessings,
Naomi